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January 1st, 2012
July 5th, 2009
04:21 pm - For my bestie
I feel lousy when i cannot do anything to ease the pessimism that miss cheong is feeling about her school life. i understand that kinda feeling esp when she's more pessimistic about making new friends & stereotype about that particular institution. i hoped that she can find nice clique & have a memorable 3 or 4 years there :)
Fear to me may not be a bad thing as it comes with humility. Such people tend to be humble, never take things for granted, thus gaining more than some others =) However, too much unnecessary fears might destruct one's own emotion. I hope that miss cheong can bear this in mind & cope with it well :) no matter what happens, im here for her & though that might not be of any help, i hoped that she knws that she's not alone =) I have faith in her as always, knwing that she can make it & go through this new stage of her life =)
GOOD LUCK :D ilu bestf.
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June 26th, 2009
11:29 pm - how hard must that knock be?
sometimes i wonder, how much further hard knocks must i get before something good comes along. it's God's plan i knw, but what is God trying to tell me?
='(
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/disappointed.gif) disappointed
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June 25th, 2009
11:05 pm - Thinking too much?
sometimes, you knw when they say you cant have the best of both worlds? i used to think that i can strike a balance. but now, i believe more in having faith i guess :)
sometimes i get paranoid over trival issues. but faith keeps me alive i guess. i need to have faith in people. haha. sometimes i feel like deja vu. i hope those sickening dreams dont come true. in either way.
mr witty's having a really tiring day in bangkok. cant slp early as he have to meet up with his thai customers. poor him ): hopefully things get better for the tradeshow tmr :D
im seriously in love with RL totes! awfully gorgeous!
chio right!
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June 23rd, 2009
10:52 am - Bye Jerk
I sent him this on sunday after much thinking:
"I had no intention of wasting my time saying all this to you but you kept doing this. pls stop all your psychology gimmicks. i'm leading a very happy life now so pls do not sms or call me again. Best wishes & take care."
i can be cruel to someone but that's very rare. as in, turning them down cruelly that is. haha. in terms of cruel treatments, not really ( cold yes =x ). i wanted to say even harsher things to him like "don't add misery to my life" but i think maintaining a cool tone is a better option. the fact was that im also afraid that it'll worsen his heart condition (which i can assuringly say that he DOES HAVE A HEART PROBLEM) & i also don't wanna show too much emotions to mislead him into assuming that i still care for him or whatsoever.
he replied me 3 smses.
1) " Sorry...."
2) " I still Love...."
3) " Take care ... this will be the last I MSG u"
like.. i don't give a damn dude. I DON'T! yes im gonna rant & vent here (not now) but you caused too much misery to me & i will NEVER GO BACK TO YOU. fark off
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June 20th, 2009
11:34 pm - he has marked that spot in my heart
it was a wonderful night spent with love. once again, he said something that melted my heart to the hardcore max & this time round, my tears rolled. despite asking him not to touch on that topic the first time, he insisted on touching on it after i came back from the ladies.i was alrd trying hard to hold back those tears and as he went on, somehow the sudden gush of those emotions overwhelmed me & i just broke down a little in front of him. Thanks to the music & alcohol, i was able to calm down shortly. But still, i think this is the second time so far that he really said something that made me feel the pinch. to be honest, he has said things that touched my heart before but what really makes a difference this time round is that he said it right to my face. i felt like i was gonna collapse on the spot. hahaha. not being dramatic here but cos it was a sensitive topic that's why it has such an impact. i dont knw if im able to meet someone like him in the future again. but for now, nothing else matters. i love you. i really do =)
knowing someone like you is my honour
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June 19th, 2009
02:33 pm
i'm tired. physically. mentally. ohh man! give me a job will ya? sometimes, i fear & feel that im losing him. am i being paranoid again? i knw it's not easy to maintain this rship. I NEED A JOB! ='(
anws.. met up with him on wed. missed him so much. went for drink at "The Wine Company". The white wine was nice. had a cheese platter that made both of us wanna puke. haha. sometimes i wished time will stop at the point of time where both of us are tgt. he's leaving for thailand next tues. sigh ): he seems very busy today. so i didnt text him alot. he's been much more busier ever since i first contacted him before grad. it makes me feel paranoid at times but ohh well.. let nature take it's course bah. if he's really busy, i should feel happy for him cos that means there's business :)
met up with the clique on tues for dinner at Ajisen & coffee at Starbucks. cool ;) it's always nice to see everyone sitting down tgt & chit chatting over stuffs. be it bitching abt someone, sharing any experience or even just plain whining. i guess it's these simpe things that matters isnt it? =)
congrats to maybelline tay for graduating from Nafa officially ;) keep going darling!
jiayou hui! never give up no matter how tough the road ahead might seems. it's always abt giving it a try & never say die =) i believe you can do it!
peiwen ah peiwen! dont be doubtful of yourself. you're someone with talent & vision. believe in yourself & cut down on being skeptical abt yourself & your life. no matter what happens, i have faith in you & your capabilities. muahs!
as for qing, i hope that she can find the right path or the path that she wants to go & work hard towards it & reach the final destination with a smile =)
lastly, welcome back Miss SP! one more year to go & hopefully by the end of your poly life, you'll knw where you wanna head next stop & go for it.
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June 14th, 2009
09:50 pm - second entry of the day
Fear. Fear of? Fear of feeling lost. After the family talk earlier on, together with yesterd's incident, my heart just felt the painful pinch. this lingering fear.. how long do i need to break away from it? how long must i pretend like i can move on fine?
i just need to isolate myself from everyone for a while =)
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/nolegs/depressed.gif) depressed
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12:33 pm - a mixture of feelings
have been happy with octo. it's all that matters isnt it? :) in fact, i felt blessed with him ard. heehee. life's been a roller coaster so far. the down part is still due to the fact that im JOBLESS ): arghhh. grant me a job soon PLEASEEEEEEE. octo's in Indo now. miss him ):
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May 28th, 2009
11:16 am
i was foolishly thinking that he msged me to disturb me, only to realise that he was merely sending a mass sms to greet me for today's dragonboat festival. one thing i've learned hard from e past rships, is staying faithful & knwing what i really want. nothing could describe my feelings now. anws.. ive been having a hectic week this week boy. from interview to driving to interview & driving AGAIN. today & tmr marks a significant event of my week. good luck to me! ;)
meanwhile, HAPPY DUAN WU JIE! :D
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